Change with the changes
The beginning of July marked four months since I arrived in Australia.
The time has simultaneously crawled by and sped by in a flash and I guess we’ve got the first pandemic-induced lockdown, and now the second, to thank for that.
Early July of last year was also when I decided it was time to leave Hong Kong. It wasn’t like I started hating the city. It was more that I started feeling like I was constantly running up against a wall - both in my personal life and at work.
I was feeling lost, angry, frustrated, exasperated - name a negative emotion, I was probably feeling it at that time. I was still reeling from being on the receiving end of intense emotional abuse from an ex-boyfriend, and I was feeling increasingly unhappy and unmotivated in a job that I used to love.
The universe can really work in mysterious ways - because shortly after I realised that something had to give, I found myself at my first gong bath session with my friend, and Martha, the gong master, read aloud this passage from Opening Doors Within by Eileen Caddy:
“What does life mean to you? Do you enjoy it to the full? Do you expect the very best from it? Do you accept that it is infinite, that it has no beginning and no end? Does the knowledge thrill and uplift you, or does it horrify and depress you? Your attitude towards life at this time is most important, for many wonders are unfolding, and it is necessary that you go along with all that is happening and do not fight against it.
It is a time of unfoldment, not of strife or struggle; therefore be still, behold wonder upon wonder unfold in true perfection, and give eternal thanks. Give thanks for being alive and for being part of what is taking place. Give thanks for the rapid changes, and change with the changes. All is for the very best; therefore be not afraid but move forward joyfully. Feel yourself a part of the whole process of change, of wholeness and newness.”
Literally the second Martha finished reading this, something clicked both in my head and in my heart, and I knew what I needed to do, and what changes I need to make - including the drastic ones, like leaving my home, as painful as it would be.
Change is a constant in everyone’s lives, and trust me, it’s futile to fight against it. The changes that took place over the next year of my life were painful and joyful, and led me to where I am now - in Australia, madly in love, pursuing my dream of building my photography business.
I’m forever thankful that some higher power out there sent me down a path that would enable me to embrace those changes rather than struggle against them. Change with the changes - you never know how differently your life could look a year from now.